It's about time I wrote about something.
Its been a few days since I wrote my pledge and whilst I'm still doing a "soft initiation" of my goals, I'm actually starting to see benefits of an improved attitude. I thought I'd write it down as a short entry, just to remind myself that there will always be things to bring me down, but sticking to the pledge will always be beneficial.
Firstly, if you're unaware, there's a man who used to present a car show on the BBC called Jeremy Clarkson, and this week, he wrote some pretty horrible words about a prominent female figure. I don't need to go into much detail; if you know, you know I don't need to repeat this, if you don't know, just search his name anywhere. Anyway, This story is the type that depresses me. Of course, the words aren't nice to read, but this isn't the main reason it induces depression in me. It's the fact that these things are not only allowed to happen in most cases, but they're actually defended by people who normally just choose their stance based on which celebrity or political side holds the controversial argument. It depresses me to think that these rich, famous, successful people can direct very real hatred with no real consequences and barely a second thought.
Okay, yes. You can clearly see that the reaction this time seems to be different, but then again, who can defend the idea of throwing excrement at an innocent naked woman, whilst simultaneously saying they are a worse person than a well-known murderer. You just can't, no matter how hard people try. When it's too much for people who call themselves "Toryboy Pierce", you know you messed up.
So yeah, I managed to curb a massively negative reaction to this, despite the fact the story has been shoved in my face for a couple of days. Although the thought of Laura Kuenssberg (former head of politics at the BBC, a state owned, supposedly politically fair broadcaster) failing to ask the editor of the paper that posted JC's comments a question to challenge that decision does get me really close to that place. We're all good though.
The second thing is my language learning. I've restarted it properly and weirdly, for the first time in a long time, I'm enjoying it. Maybe the thought and knowledge that I'll be able to speak Turkish in 6 months is driving me, I don't know, but this time does feel different. That could also be because I've changed to using Babbel, from Duolingo. Duolingo is great and free, but limiting. I had to pay for Babbel because I've decided to be serious about this, which is also financially tying me to the decision. So I guess, and bear with me I'm now thinking out loud (on paper?), but maybe the idea in my head that I'm really dedicated this time, is affecting my reaction to them, because I guess tasks without sight of the rewards are much harder to do? I mean it makes sense now I say it, they always say to actually reward yourself after regular milestones to encourage you. Its just the way our brain works (we're not actually that much better than dogs then). Well, I am rambling, I apologise. I think you have just been reading my mind think things through in real time... although I deleted a lot more rambling and loads of commas.
About time I end this "short entry".
Edit (2 hours after posting):
What the f*** was I talking about? "I think you have just been reading my mind think things through in real time"??? There are only 11 words after this. This is the end of my blog post. Awful writing, if I do say so myself.
A good writer would use better words to describe the feeling of concluding a thought as you type it out, leaving one wonder "Did my writing encourage the thought, or did the thought encourage the writing?"
This is one of those things that could either be the topic of philosophical debate or what I imagine swirls around Matt Hancock's mind on weed.
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